"Always be yourself, express yourself, have faith in yourself, do not go out and look for a successful personality and duplicate it." -Bruce Lee, (1940-1973)
This is important. This is a major announcement. I've never been more focused on something I was so self conscience about. I can't stress that enough. There has been enough stress on me already over this and I don't want this to be a part of my life that I have to conceal. I want to be who I am and express it. I want to feel comfortable enough to express it.
So you either came here from one of three ways: 1)You watch my Youtube video which had this link in the description and you wanted to be a good viewer and read my blog entry about this. To which I say thank you, 2) you got here when I posted this link on one of my social media sites, to which I also say thank you or 3) you just happen to randomly find this blog post entry thing and decided to read it, to where again I say thank you.
You can watch the video at the bottom of the post with the the transcript below. It is preferred that you watch the video before you read this post, so you can click here or scroll down. Anyway the following text may be unsuitable for some readers, and is intended for a mature audience.
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So yeah, I'm a furry . . . don't really know what to say after that but yeah, thats the announcement. And if you noticed in the video, I look and feel extremely uncomfortable. I decided not to stand like I normally do, I have a weird posture and composure, I barely looked at the camera, I oddly move around from time to time, and my voice, my voice is a dead give away. You can tell in my voice that I'm extremely uncomfortable and very awkward talking about this.
I first discovered furries back in the 8th grade and been a fan of it (if I can say it like that) ever since. Back in 8th grade I had a phase where I had a thing for werewolves. Don't know why, don't remember why, but yeah, I had that little phase going on for me. That was really how it all started, that was basically the first step. So during the duration of my "interest in werewolves" phase, I somehow came across furries. Don't remember how I came across it. Pretty sure it just some furry artwork of some kind. (I'm pretty sure that's the most common way of discovering furries.) What it was and how I found it I have no idea, but it indeed peaked my interest. And ever since then, I guess I became a furry, even though I didn't considered myself one just yet because I was still just finding out what a furry was.
Now I'm not gonna lie, but at the same I really don't wanna talk to much about it. It's just a subject that everyone thinks of when they think of furries. When I first discovered furries, the Internet is a confusing place. To me, there are two sides of the Internet for furries. The clean side (Safe For Work) and then there's the yiff side (Not Safe For Work).Yiff actually has multiple meanings and definitions but most commonly it refers to anthropomorphic intercourse or furry sex. So of course when first discovering what furries were I saw A LOT of yiff . Yiff is something I'm not particularly into but its not like I'm disgusted by it. I acknowledge it but I don't care for it. Its not like I go and fap to that. I know it exist and I leave it at that. I HAVE NO SEXUAL INTEREST IN FURRIES OR ANIMALS EXCEPT HUMAN.
What I like best about the furry fandom is the freedom of expression. You don't have to worry about who you are, the way you look, your interest, ethnicity or your sexuality. No one is to judge. And for the record, I am
As a kid, I used to make believe that I was another animal. It was just part of my normal child imaginative play. It's something that's overlooked by your parent(s), but not as an 18 year old who's supposed to be getting ready for the "real world". I constantly get scolded by my mother to" grow up" or "act my age" whenever I do "Child's Play" or in this cause, "Puppy Play", even though when writing this post, I couldn't really call it Puppy Play cause my mother doesn't know I'm a furry, let alone know what a furry is, so Puppy Play would've been worse. Being able to express myself through this as well as other stuff that I do, is just the way I can cope with the stress of having to face the world. I know I have to face it and I know I have to handle it but sometimes I can't, it just becomes too much. And it's good to know that my mother shuns me for this. "Pretending" the way that I do is just the last bit of childhood in me that has just evolved and grown with me. Like I said in the video it really is my other passion, even though I've never really pursued it until now. Being a furry is just another part of me which just makes me feel good and happy and I want happiness to show through my life.
And for the longest, . . . basically always, forever, and since the beginning of my furry existence, no one ever knew I was a furry because I never told anyone I was a furry. And the reason for that was because I thought and kinda knew it wasn't socially acceptable. It wouldn't really be accepted in the "real" world. It's not something that you would see or consider a grown person to be a part of. Society just doesn't know what to think about it, they don't know how to react. It's common with everything that if you don't understand something you reject it. And when you tell society that you pretend to be some other animal and dress up as said animal, they will look at you weird cause it doesn't seem like its common day to day thing, which it isn't. And people will look at this and think that it is something that's not right, and think that you must be mentally disturbed or something. And rejection is something that I fear. Knowing how people commonly react to furries, I did not want to be rejected for being one. I've slowly been feeling more comfortable with myself being a furry, and "coming out" little by little to the people who are close to me.
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." -Dr. Seuss
I've seen a lot of hatred toward furries. Especially online considering that I've never been open until now, so it couldn't be personal. But after seeing it for so long and after all this time, I have become desensitized to it. Common insults towards furries doesn't bother me anymore. Can't really make a list of them because it's probably very small and I still don't pay attention to it. I've even started calling myself a furfag so that way other people can't use that word against me and also because...I am one. And I'm not the only one. A lot of furries actually own that word and basically take control of it, in fact I'm pretty sure a lot of furries call each other furfags.
The next thing I had to do was accept myself. I literally had to stand in front of the mirror and call myself a furry in order to accept myself as one. And it was strangely the most weirdest, uncomfortable and awkward thing I ever had to do. How do you make yourself feel awkward when it's literally only you? I was ashamed of myself, I was embarrassed. I made myself think that I was socially unacceptable. But then, now that I think about it, it doesn't really affect my day to day lifestyle. Being a furry is not going to restrict me from living my life. Being a furry has never hurt me or anyone as far as I know of. So I don't really care what other people think, as long as I'm just happy being true to myself.
If i wasn't a furry, I really don't know how my life would be different. I doubt it would be any different, I've just been keeping it on the down low, keeping in wraps, suppressing it. I guess I would've had some more free time not thinking about furry things. But then again, what would I be doing with that free time? ... nevermind. But now that I think of it, I wish I was a lot more open a lot more sooner because who knows where I would be now if I wasn't so closed to it. If I could've gone this far with YouTube, I could've made it far as a furry.
The more I think about, there is a lot to actually be proud about. Sure its all about these animal creatures but that's just the surface, the visual aspect. It goes in much deeper than that. it becomes emotional. People use the furry fandom to have a sense of belonging. Its a social hub for the socially awkward (like me). There is a lot of joy that comes out of this. This is something that makes everybody happy. Until you meet a furry in person, you won't know what it's like. Of course, I'm referring to when there are fursuiters in public and they act so adorable towards people who are curious enough to be interested and willing to interact. It goes for both children and adults, although, it's usually the child with their parents (lol). There's also many charities that the furry fandon attributes too. They are actually raising money to help other people. So it helps more than just the people who are furries.
Being a furry is not something I should be afraid of, and neither should any other furs. I want to be a happy furry. I want to be a free furry. Free to express myself. I think I've done that now. I have officially announced to the world that I am indeed a furry, and it feels good. Knowing something that I have been hiding for so long, feels so good to finally let people know. I know its super cliche to say but it seriously feels like a weight has been lifted. In the beginning I was nervous, I didn't know if I wanted to this, but I forced myself to do it, and I'm proud of myself, and I know only good things can come from this. ^^
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OFFICIAL TRANSCRIPT
Intro
Build up/Setup: So I've been thinking a lot recently, about something kinda personal,(?). And as you can see by the title of this video, it was left blank because I didn't want people to judge the video let alone me before you even watched it and heard what I had to say.
Reveal: There really is easy no way to say this, so I'm gonna straight up say it, I'm a Furry. Yeah shocking that the nerdy, horribly awkward, anti-social, over-imaginative, detached-from-reality, YouTuber, is a Furry, SHOCKING.
Break down: I was never really open about being a Furry because I was afraid of people judging me. Usually when my friends would talk about Furries around me it would tend to be negative, of course they didn't know I was a Furry, and all they knew was the yiff, I didn't want to be associated with that, I didn't want people to think I was some kind of sexual deviant. Yiff is basically Furry sex and that's not what the Furry Fandom is all about. The only reason a lot of people think it is, is because in media, sex sells. When was the last time you click on a YouTube video because it had boobs in the thumbnail? [You might even know about the infamous episode of CSI that viewed Furries negatively. I've never seen the episode and I don't think I want to.]
So if your still watching this video you probably want to know a bit more, you're probably a Furry yourself or at least somewhat interested. My reason for being a Furry is what I assume is for most people. Just an interest in anthros, and also remember, its a fantasy, a make-believe world where we are practically in control, a way to break reality and our real world problems. an escape route. <FurAffinity story> And it reminded me of when I use to pretend I was an animal as a little kid. I had a very active and strong imagination, so it was really easy to get into this fandom, and I never really been part of the fandom because I never had any Furry accounts, Furry friends or attended a Fur-Con. When I was first into the Furry Fandom of course all I saw was the yiff, and it never really bothered me, I was never really into that, I just liked the concept of anthropomorphic animals. The first time I ever told anyone was back in freshman year of high school. I told my best friend and of course he was a little freaked out but he was cool with it because we were friends regardless, and were still friends today and I love him for that.
Extras: Making this video was obviously a big deal for me. I wanted to be able to do this and be open about being a Furry. And the easiest way of me doing that was to make a video. Besides being a YouTuber and an underground dancer, being a Furry is really my other passion. And all I want is to make friends and have fun. and that's really what my channel is all about, and that's what being a Furry is to me, and I think that's a good way to end the video.
Outro: Furry questions, outro (FA)
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*This video was filmed sometime in April and was originally planned to be uploaded sometime in May after my 'I'M LEGAL!!!' video, but due to other videos and the way I schedule them, it was pushed back.
*Since this was Already filmed a while back, I am much more comfortable now then I was during filming.
*This post was edited continuously since then until published.
*Since this was Already filmed a while back, I am much more comfortable now then I was during filming.
*This post was edited continuously since then until published.
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